The Ones That Really Mattered… A Tale of Suicide and Hope

“May [this] be a light to you in dark places, when all other lights go out.” galadriel, the lord of the rings Suicide and hope… Two words in our culture representing opposite sides of the spectrum. The idea of someone dying by their own hands for many people means that the person must have lost

Just a Little Fun

Just figured I’d share some of the reels I’ve made on Facebook to allow people to see them in one place besides my Facebook profile. Plus, I mean, of course I want to promote my reels, TikTok videos and The Schizo Affect Facebook page I have. You should check out the pages and give them

Eureka! Proof There Is Still Hope On The Internet

I’m a bit nervous. Hell, I think you should be too. “Why?” You might ask. Well because of what I am about to put into the internet’s hands. You know the internet just as well as I do. It can be a hellish landscape to traverse. And, pretty soon, you, me, and everybody’s mom is

One Smart Momma… The Simple Brilliance of The Song Simple Man

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One Smart Momma So the story goes that shortly “after Ronnie Van Zant’s grandmother and Gary Rossington’s mother died, they got together in Van Zant’s apartment and started telling stories about them. Rossington came up with a chord progression, and Van Zant wrote the lyrics based on advice the women had given them over the

Resident Evil and Why We Watch Others Play Video Games

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If you know me at all then you know I really like to watch reaction videos. Furthermore, I like to watch people play video games on YouTube as well. (“Yeah, screw Twitch”). For my own personal viewing I like to watch two specific channels on YouTube play video games (sometimes a third). First, I love

Story Time (Sort Of)… Cheese Toddler

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Cheese toddler. What do you think of when you read that? A toddler made of cheese. A toddler with cheese all over it. What? I’m genuinely curious. The reason, well… because what I personally think of when I think of “cheese toddler” is quite different than most would probably think. Yet, then again, I have

Why I Am A Nebraska Cornhusker Fan For Life

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If you couldn’t tell by the fact I make TikTok videos out of old husker highlights I’m a Nebraska boy born and raised. Well, I’m 30 years old now. A man. Or, a man-child. Whatever you want to call me you can, but I live in Bloomington, Illinois. I moved here from Windsor, Colorado. I’ve

The Banality of Mediocrity… Is Hope for Husker Football Dead?

“Hope is a dangerous thing. Hope can drive a [fan] insane.” -Red No matter your rooting interest in the NFL as long as you watch the sport it seems we all witnessed the Greatest Divisional Round Ever this past weekend. Every single game came down to the last minute. Also, each game included a heartbreaking

Red Dead Redemption and The Greatest Video Game I’ve Never Played

It all comes back to this. I’ll never forget the first time I saw this trailer for the greatest game I’ve ever played, Red Dead Redemption 2. The way the music builds and swells right around the time Arthur Morgan begins to speak, saying “listen to me, when the time comes, you gotta run and

Day Dreamer

Day dreaming, thinking, his head in the clouds, The man has visions very vivid and loud He wanders around in the depths of his mind Refraining from thoughts of all the real world. Here in his head he controls his own path, Here he is king on a large plot of land, But he cannot

Regretful Reflection

Past thoughts re-emerge all the time in my brain Would doing this or that have changed many a thing? Lamenting decisions made long ago in the past Mind tossing and turning when handing down blame. “If I had worked harder, if I had just tried I could have been good at the sports I had


Can you even remember the first movie that ever made you cry? The question came up in my mind recently and, funny enough, I can’t remember what film actually got me to cry first. No, for some reason it’s more complex and weird than that (because, well, it’s me). I cannot remember what the first

Cornhusker Hope In ‘Our Great’ Depression

As a Nebraska Cornhusker football fan the season of 2021-22 has been, well… You know how it has been if you’re a Husker fan, but… It’s been fucking rough. I don’t know about you, but in my own case I tend to get extremely excited every year as the football season starts to come around.

Cheese Toddler

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This is simply my short screenplay based off of a blog post of the same name about an interesting story from my past. You can read the post first if you want right here: I believe it to be really good (both the blog post and short script) so I figured I could let people

Sometimes It Can Be Tough

Boy we’ve had a week haven’t we folks. Somehow some way our Cornhuskers pulled another defeat out of the jaws of victory and we were excited after it. Normally we, or at least I, would be pessimistic about all of this. Yet, the Nebraska Cornhusker football team still has a chance at some interesting things

LeBron James… The Never Ending Story

Did I have to post that? Maybe, maybe not. But… that is the story of LeBron James career. Okay so in the first season LeBron was this kind of dirty cop right, but with a good heart. He’s got to search for this kid see, but the kid is dead, or is he? Then we